I want to feel hopeful, put up a front and say that I will get in next year.
The thing is though, what if I don't get in? I'm honestly scared. What if all my hard work up to this point has been a waste, and everything I have dreamed of becoming just ruptures like a blood cell full of malaria parasites.
I want to say that I hear God telling me that I will get in next year, but how do I know it's not just my conscious saying what I want to hear.
Rejection is always hard to face. Not getting what you want or deserve is hard. Making decisions you don't want to make is hard.
Life is hard. There is no way around it.
Times like this, I like to remember God is in Control.
Maybe, God has other plans for me. Or, maybe He just wants me to wait.
I suppose I can work harder to bring up my GPA, and maybe look into a minor.
"1 I waited patiently for the LORD;
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the LORD
and put their trust in him."
he turned to me and heard my cry.
2 He lifted me out of the slimy pit,
out of the mud and mire;
he set my feet on a rock
and gave me a firm place to stand.
3 He put a new song in my mouth,
a hymn of praise to our God.
Many will see and fear the LORD
and put their trust in him."
-Psalm 40: 1-3
I pray, and hope that God will bless me and bring me from this sadness.
Have a blessed day,
<3 KM
1 comment:
I know exactly how you feel right now. I'm on the waiting list for OT school, I was not first pick, which to me felt like a rejection in itself. It's hard to be hopeful when the unknown is also staring you in the face. Keep trying to get in is all I have to say! If Nursing school is not what God has in mind then God will place His plans in your lap eventually, but keep moving, God cant use you if you are standing still. Be hopeful in the fact that God knows your passion, He made your heart for a reason and His plan for you fits perfectly into your heart! Keep trying for nursing school! I will keep trying for OT school and I look forward to seeing how God uses you! <3
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