Final Exams

I must admit, this has a been a mind-bottling and stressful week.  I have been studying constantly for exams and have entirely lost all energy until today.

Most of my stress has been one class, where the teacher refuses to round up any grades or curves anything.  Which I understand, she does this only to be fair to everyone.  But, at the same time this is a disadvantage to those who are on the border of the next letter grade.

And I of which, fell into this category.  I had a 69.4- I needed a 0.1 to pass the class with a C.

I'll tell you, I was extremely stressed out by the fact that I would have to repeat such a hard class and lose a point on the Nursing Scale (you get accepted into Nursing school based on how many points you have).

Last night, I was severely worried about everything.  I must say, this happens quite often.

I always tell myself God will be with me, and everything will be alright.  However, this is always hard to believe whole-heartedly.

Jeremiah 32: 27 states: 

"Behold, I am the Lord, the God of all flesh; is anything to difficult for Me?"

I ask, how can anything be too difficult for the Creator of all the Universe?

Seems kind of silly to not have Faith in the Lord who has all control.

I came to turns with this yesterday, I was sitting down and just started to pray openly.  Basically I said, Lord I know I do not deserve any miracle you may provide, but please Grace me with this class and pass.  

Jeremiah 32: 38-41 says:

"They will be my people, and I will be their God.  I will give them singleness of heart and action, so that they will always fear me for their own good and the good of their children after them.  I will make an everlasting covenant with them:  I will never stop doing good to them, and I will inspire them to fear me, so that they will never turn away form me.  I will rejoice in doing them good and will assuredly plant them in this land with all my hear and soul."

Not to boast, but Our God is greater than any other.  Our God is beautiful, a parent, a refuge! 

I am not sure if you all have noticed, but I do have trust issues- even with God.  I don't trust others easily due to many broken promises in the past.  However, everyday I am finding God is giving me more reason to put 100%, whole hearted trust in Him.  God has never failed me, and God is not human. 

God is incapable of making mistakes.

In summary of what happened with this class, I somehow passed with a C.  I do not know how when I know the teacher ultimately refuses to by-pass grades.

I would like to believe that God place some sort of miracle upon this situation, maybe He lightened her heart on me after seeing how hard I work.  Or, maybe somehow the answers were screwed up on the Final exam.

I am not completely sure, but I know it was my Heavenly Father that made it possible.

Have a blessed day,

<3 KM

Disney and Brick Walls

We are all familiar with the Little Mermaid, most likely Disney's Little Mermaid.  She was an outgoing mer-person who wanted to change her life and become human.  However, she did this the wrong way by trading her voice to an evil Sea Witch, when she only needed to confront her Father about the issue.

Why am I talking about the Little Mermaid? I have no idea, it just seems to fit what is on my mind currently. The topic being Change and Speaking out.  I guess the Princess Mulan would be a better fit?

Unless Mulan did not speak out about the Huns, her country would have been destroyed (I highly recommend watching this movie!).

But, anyway.

Change, unless you want change in your life you have to speak out.

This has been a very soul searching week, in which I am learning so much about myself that I the part I like to keep hidden keeps peeking over the walls I have up.  And, that's usually what we usually do: build a brick wall between ourselves and the people we should be close too.

Last night, I opened up to two people in my life.  One being someone I want to get closer too, the other I have been close too for the past couple months.  I admit it, I have trust issues.

But, it's not only trust issues with other people, but with God.  Which is silly, considering God has never let me down.  I guess, I am finding that with God- He is not human, He is a being so powerful, just and beautiful! God is perfect, what reason can I think of not to trust him?

Not trusting God, or those around you, just leads to a stagnant point in your relationships where there's nothing, but brick walls.  God knows everything about us, individually, down to how many neuron cells we have, the number of hairs on our head, the pulse of our heart, the thoughts we create every moment, even the speed of  the growth of our toe nails.

How can we NOT trust someone like that!

I pray that those who are going through the same obstacle realize, there is no reason not to trust God; the Creator of the Universe, the King of Kings, the Hope that has blessed us with Salvation!

As for the ones around you, take baby steps.  Remember, Relationships with fellow Christians is very important because these relationships are the Vertebral disks in The Spine of our Christianity (I'm a Nursing Major) that helps Straighten our Posture towards God!

As well, to change these or any other relationships that are stagnant- speak out! Pray to God, Worship his name in songs, and to Hear from Him try reading the Bible and look for the signs he gives us Daily!

It may not be sinning by holding in what needs to be said, but it does hurt your relationships with others more.  Whether removing one Brick at a Time of your Walls or Crashing it all down at once- I promise, you will feel so much better towards the end!

Proverbs 3:5-6
“Trust in the LORD with all your heart
and lean not on your own understanding;

In all your ways acknowledge him,
and he will make your paths straight. ” (NIV)

Have a blessed day,

<3KM

Extra Luggage: Empty Out the Socks and Shirts, Pack more Underwear

 

How many times do you over pack?  Whether you are going to your Grandma Mary's for Christmas, going camping with friends, or going to the beach?  Sure, you are prepared.  But, some items you bring with you are completely unnecessary and require extra hassle to luggage.

As humans, we certainly have extra baggage.  Baggage from past experience, relationships, and bonds that we bring with us wherever we go.  However, not all extra baggage is bad.

We need some extra sometimes to prepare us for where we go by using the wisdom that was learned.  However, there is a difference between carrying our past with us as a security blanket or extra luggage, and being prepared.  Through this concept, allow God to sift through your baggage. 

Allow Him to be like your mother that rummages your suitcase before you leave to camp, making sure you don't bring a rubber snake, but makes sure you have a tooth brush packed.  God will keep packed the very best of what you can use and take the burden of the unstable.

In Matthew 11: 28-30, the verse states:

²⁸ “Come to me, all you who are weary and burdened, and I will give you rest. ²⁹ Take my yoke upon you and learn from me, for I am gentle and humble in heart, and you will find rest for your souls. ³⁰ For my yoke is easy and my burden is light.”

 

So, any extra luggage you are carrying- turn it all over to God!  He will be able to make any problem lighter that it is.  For instance, I have been looking for a job since the end of the school year, and what I have been doing is turning the issue over to God.

I have looked for jobs practically everyday, while attending school from 8 AM to 6:30 PM.  The process I have been doing is maintaining my hopefulness of acquiring a job and praying that a job will happen.

Today, actually, I received an e-mail from one of the jobs I applied to a few weeks ago.  I will really hope and pray that I receive the job!  If I don't, it's not meant to be.  But, I have a hunch it's all according to God's purpose.

In the meantime, anyone reading this who is feeling like they are over packed, carrying extra socks full of sorrow or wrinkled shirts with stains of anger.  Allow God to urge you to pack Underwear full of hope and trust.  

Because, it's like my mother says:

"You can never carry enough Underwear."

 

Have a Blessed Father's Day!

<3 KM